Update

God is so amazingly holy, it is beyond me. It really was hitting me hard last night as I was in Charlotte at the Third Day concert. His holiness is much more than I could ever even comprehend. Yet even with as holy as he is, I don't have to come trying to bring my best. I can come as I am. Dirty, naked, poor. He makes me holy. It isn't that I don't desire to be holy, or that I'm going to decide to not try to be holy, no. I will always pursue holiness. After all, the Bible says "Be holy, just as your Father in Heaven is holy". But I have to realize that in the end, I still can't be holy enough. That's when I have to come as the Child of God that I am and be broken before Him and say "Daddy, I need you." Well, I need to go. Leave any comments if you wish. -Sarah (And I am thrilled out of my mind--I sang with Third Day!)

A poem and lyrics

A poem I wrote:   The Long-awaited Thaw October 21st, 2004 by Sarah   With baited breath we wait longing for the spark of hope we crave the release we desire the flame thoughts run by a mile a minute is this reality? or only an illusion of thirsty hearts? please be real spark ignite cold death needs fresh life frozen and waiting longing for the thaw just out of reach we can see it but cannot feel it let us breathe again come and bring hope   Lyrics that express how I feel:   I'm so bored of little gods while standing on the edge of something large. While standing here, so close to You. We could be consumed. What a glorious day I give up, I lay down, rest my face on this ground. Lift my eyes to Your sky. Rid  my heart of all I hide So sweet this surrender.    -David Crowder Band, "How Great"   Quotes that I'm just "getting" right now There is nothing with which every man is so afraid as getting to know how enormously much he is capable of doing and becoming. -Soren Kierkegaard God creates out of nothing. Wonderful you say. Yes, to be sure, but he does what is still more wonderful: he makes saints out of sinners. -Soren Kierkegaard   If God is satisfied with the work, the work may be satisfied with itself. -CS Lewis ------------ The present generation, wearied by its chimerical efforts, relapses into complete indolence. Its condition is that of a man who has only fallen asleep towards morning: first of all come great dreams, then a feeling of laziness, and finally a witty or clever excuse for remaining in bed. --Kierkegaard   Some of Kierkegaard's stuff is good. Some of it is weird and off the wall, but every once in a while, he gets it. For some reason, this quote has got me thinking. How many times am I lazy with my life. Not like physical laziness (though I do need to work on that), but lazy in what I was called to do. "So what if God called me to be great and has given me a purpose? Elizabeth Browning once said "God's gifts put man's best dreams to shame.", yet often times I am so content to just sit and daydream. But what does daydreaming do? I'm not talking about getting ideas or seeing vision, I'm talking about wasting my time by thinking about stupid things. Or even just wasting my time doing the little tiny things that don't matter. I'm tired of living my life like God has given me a little destiny. He has given me great gifts and has given me a vision and a purpose. I want to live up to my giftings. I'm ready.   Comment if you'd like. -Sarah

I know it looks crazy

Right now my blog is going through a lot of STRANGE stuff. It won't let me edit anything, if I do it messes up. So I'm having to update through e-mail. I am in a mood where I feel like making a list. This is a list of wild and crazy dreams that I have for my life. Not unattainable, but rather big nonetheless. 1. Write a book. I'm thinking a collection of essays would be best. I really want to do this one before I get too old--like I want to still be fairly young when I do this. 2. Speak on a national tour. I'd take any kind of tour. Music, Acquire the Fire, etc. Heck, I'd be happy doing one date. 3. Pastor or intern at a church in England. I would love to go to England. The country is so ready for God to move in their hearts! I'd love to go over there and be loud!! ----------------- That's all I can think of, but I know there is a LOT more! Comment if you like! -Sarah

Update

Man it's been awhile! I am having trouble with the layout, but just bear with me. I've got so many thoughts about life and God and everything, but I'm so busy I don't have the time to type them out the way I want to. However, I did post a post on the Third Day Message Boards a post that I deemed worthy enough to be posted on here, in case you didn't read it. It is in response to a guy who said he didn't want to be a Third Day fan anymore because Mac made some comment about GWB at the Atlanta concert (which really was just to lead into the Weapons of Mass Distortion joke about Brad) and it ruined the worship mood for him, and he was looking forward to worshipping Jesus at the concert and he was upset. People talked to him about the fact that it was a joke, etc, but no one addressed the worship issue. So here is where I enter. I think the others have done a wonderful job about discussing the political aspects of the concert, and I have to say I agree, and I don't have much to add that would really help. What I want to address is the idea of worship. I think a lot of times, we come(myself included in this) to a Third Day(or any other artist) concert and are expecting to have the most amazing worship experience of our lives. We think "oh wow, great music, people I don't know, etc, and it's going to be amazing. This band is awesome and their worship music is amazing and I'm just ready to bow before the throne". Well what happens? Sometimes we don't "feel" it as much as we would like. (Which, by the way, from the other reviews I've read from the concert, it was an anointed time!) And those are the times where we come away wishing for more. I've been there, done that. It is great when God touches our hearts at concerts. I've been to Third Day concerts where I have kneeled down in the very front in awe of God. I've been to Third Day concerts where God's mercy has hit me so hard that I have to stand and worship, even when everyone else is sitting down(and I'm on the front row!). I've been to Third Day concerts where it's been fun, and rocking, but not as amazing spiritually as others. I've been to Third Day concerts where I just have a BLAST jumping up and down, but the worship isn't as exciting. And I used to say "Well I wish they had played *insert song here*. Then it would have been amazing." But God started dealing with me on that. He said "Sarah, look. It is not Third Day's job to lead you into worship. It is also irrelevant if you feel it. Because it isn't about you, and how amazing the worship is for you. It's about ME. It is your job to praise me and to worship me, and even if you don't feel it, or they don't play the song you like, you should not stop praising me. Because it isn't Third Day's job to play the 'right' song that gives you Holy Spirit 'chillbumps' so you have an 'awesome' time. It is YOUR job to worship me, no matter if it's at a Third Day concert or at church or in your room alone." And once God said that to me, my whole view of worship and concerts changed. I love Third Day's worship music. I really do. I am a worshipper at heart. There is nothing I love more than being able to have communication with God and say "God, you are SO beautiful and worthy!!". But I also love the rock. I love it when they play "Sky Falls Down" and I get to jump. And once God told me that, I didn't go to concerts so I could have a nice spiritual atmosphere to worship. Yes, I pray for concerts, and I LOVE it when God anoints the worship. It is SO amazing when he touches lives. I now go to concerts for the rock first of all. (Which if you think about it, it's all worship, since as Brad said, "Worship is bringing God to the center of whatever you're doing") And I concentrate on my worship not being dependent on concerts. I worship at church every week. I worship in my room nearly every night. Yesterday on the way to school I got stuck in a traffic jam and instead of stressing out, I popped in some music and just prayed and worshipped God, and it was amazing. There's a simple truth hidden in all my ramblings, and it is that if we worship at home, and every day with our lives,(and I don't just mean worship music, but also the "offering of our bodies as living sacrifices" etc) and at church and alone, and everywhere, then when we go to Third Day concerts, it won't help but carry over--not because Third Day's music sparks that, but because the attitude of worship is in YOUR life. But if you go to a Third Day concert expecting that worship will come easily, then sometimes you will be disappointed. (I'm not saying you always will, most of the time you won't, simply because God shows up when 2 or more are gathered)A lot of people do and have (And I am including myself in this) this idea that Third Day(the 5 guys in the band) is responsible for the level of worship that comes out of a place, and the emotional aspect of worship is dependent on them. But it isn't. It's dependent on GOD and YOU. And once you realize that, the concerts are amazing things. That was a really long and rambling post, and I hope that it didn't come off as rebuking or too rude, because I am typing this for more of myself than for anyone else. I need to be reminded of this. I don't mean to be rude, or imply that you're thinking this way, it's just your post reminded me of a lot of posts I've read about this. I'm sure I probably came off as arrogant in parts, since it's hard to express emotion over the internet, and I am just a 16 year old who still has to work this out in her own mind!! It is great when we can come to Third Day concerts and worship, but our worship experience shouldn't be so dependent on the band that one thing that they say ruins the worship mood. God bless you, and welcome to the boards! -Sarah So there you go. Comment